Shirley

I guess we will just start with the basics. Things aren't very good right now. The problems she is having is vomiting, fatigue, no appetite. I'm scared of how much weight she has lost because she isn't eating. The hair is gone now. And I know her poor little head itches so bad. She tries so hard to look like she is doing ok but she's not. I am praying to God it's the chemo doing this to her and not the cancer. I guess we will find out tomorrow. She goes to the doctor. They will check her out and I guess if her bloodwork shows that she is up for it, she will have this horrible chemo again. Right before Christmas. I hate it. And I don't know if it's the right thing to say, but I am praying to God she cannot have that chemo. I want her to have some strength, to eat, to get out of bed and enjoy Christmas in two weeks. This chemo is not right for her body. We don't even know if it's getting the tumors, but it's literally disabling her.

I know she is in so much pain and a lot of problems she is having is from the pain medication. She is very medicated.

This is absolutely the hardest thing I have ever been through and I could not feel more helpless. I am hoping things look better tomorrow.

And before I sign off....Happy Birthday Grandma:)

Teresa