January 18, 2009

This is almost my last post

We are almost done. This will be my last post until Shirley passes. We don't know when that will be, but it won't be long. She is growing weaker and weaker but has such a strong will to live. I can see that as she lays there in her bed.

The Chaplain came and gathered the family and we said a prayer around Shirley. Sammy and Alex were with us and that was the saddest part of all. To know that their mother will leave us soon. They were heartbroken, along with the rest of us.

I appreciate all of the comments, the support, the love and the prayers for Shirley and our family. We would appreciate it if you could continue the prayers a little while longer.

When Shirley leaves us I will post a final note letting everyone know. This is the saddest time of my life. People are saying things like time heals everything and she is going to a better place and we will go on...right now, it feels like my world is crumbling. My sister and my best friend is laying in a bed and is preparing to leave me and I don't like it. Nothing can heal the pain that is happening. Not right now anyway.

Love,

Teresa

22 comments:

Anonymous said...

PLEASE KNOW THAT WE ARE NOT THERE,BUT OUR HEARTS ARE BREAKEING,AND WE LOVE YOU ALL. WE KNOW THAT SHIRLEY WOULD NOT WANT US TO BE SAD. WE ARE WITH YOU PLEASE BELIVE THIS.AUNT CAROL,UNCLE DUANE AND AUNT CONNIE

Anonymous said...

TIME RIGHT NOW DOES NOT FEEL LIKE IT WILL BE HEALED, ALTHOUGH IT SEEMS LIKE THIS HELPS PEOPLE WHEN THEY TALK TO YOU, KNOW THIS TERESA THAT IT WILL WITH ALL MY BEING TO BE BETTER FOR YOU. I WILL NEVER OR ANY ONE ELSE REPLACE WHAT YOU HAVE WITH AND FOR SHIRLEY, I WILL HOWEVER BE HERE A PHONE CALL AWAY WHEN EVER YOU NEED ME AND WILL TRY WITH ALL MY HEART TO BE A BETTER SISTER AND PERSON BECAUSE OF SHIRLEY. I WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU , AMD KATHY,TOM AND TIM. ALTHOUGH I CAN NOT REMOVE YOUR BROKEN HEART I CAN TRY TO LOVE AND PRAY FOR COMFORT AND UNDERSTANDING FOR YOU,
LOVE TO YOU ,YOUR BIG SISTER, TEAR

Anonymous said...

My love and prayers sent your way.
Love you,
Robin

Anonymous said...

Still with all of you in my thoughts and prayers for continued peace...that's all we can hope for right now. Although our hearts are so very heavy we can only find comfort in knowing that soon Shirley won't have anymore pain and she will be happy again. We can ponder on all the great memories of Shirley when she was healthy and happy and had that full head of beautiful red hair. Especailly that awesome trip you all took for Shirley's 40th birthday you mentioned before Teresa.
Teresa, you really make me wish I had a sister because sisters seem to share that special bond and you are so very blessed that you had that relationship with Shirley! I do love you all and really wish I could get to you!!

All my love,
Tracy Sue

Anonymous said...

Don't let this be your last post Teresa...start a new one and let us all chat about Shirley and tell stories and share pictures. We love her so much....

Love,
Paige, Kristi and Ang

Anonymous said...

AUNT TERESA MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH ALL OF YOU AND EVEN THOUGH MY HEART BREAKS FOR AUNT SHIRLEY I KNOW THAT SHE KNEW THAT WE ALL LOVED HER VERY MUCH. i KNOW THAT THIS DOES NOT HELP RIGHT NOW BUT WHAT YOU HAVE DONE WITH THIS SITE IN THE PAST YEAR IS AMAZING AND YOU ARE ALL AMAZING OUT THERE. I LOVE YOU ALL OUT THERE AND WILL HAVE YOU ALL IN MY THOUGHTS IN PRAYERS
LOVE RACHEL

Anonymous said...

Unfortunately this is the first time I have gotten to read this, I'm truly sorry for that. I love you very much Aunt Teresa and love Aunt Shirley very much too. I know what you are going through is very painful and hard I'm sorry for that. She wouldn't want that for you, but it doesnt stop the pain you are feeling too. She may not be responding right now but I can gaurantee that she knows you are there, who couldn't with you. She is probably remembering all the crazy times you two have had together and all the times with our family. She will always be with us, and smiling down on us. I love you and everyone out there. Love always LeAnna

Anonymous said...

Kathy,
I pray that pain leaves, and peace comes to Shirley. I pray you all endure, especially the children. Take care.

Frank

Anonymous said...

I can't imagine the pain you are going through Teresa and your family right now. Thoughts and prayers continue. God Bless.

Diana

Anonymous said...

I know nothing can prepare you for the nearing loss of your Sister and Best Friend. You and your family are in my heart, thoughts, and prayers.
Love,
Kathy's Friend
Valerie

Anonymous said...

My heart breaks for all of you. I know that sadness is all you are feeling right now, but know that fond memories will soon break through and be the lasting thoughts. God bless Sam, Alex and Mike, and all of Shirley's wonderful family. Carol and Charley Christ

Anonymous said...

I love you all and my heartaches for you all. I dont know the words to say that can comfort you at this hard time, so just know that we all love you and are praying for Shirley and the whole family. Love you all!
JanetAnne

Anonymous said...

When my Dad died, I thought I would never get over it. You never get over it, but it does seem to get a little easier. You will always miss her and always love her. Try to remember the good times and not what you've been through the last few months. This will also make your relationships with others stronger. Hang in there Teresa...you are the best sister in the world..

Dusty

Anonymous said...

I know there are no words that will stop the pain so just know that I love you all and am praying for you all that you will in your own time and your own way be able to deal with the loss..love you to all!
JanetAnne

Anonymous said...

Dear Family,
We are sad for the grief and sorrow which all of us are going through right now. We pray that you are all finding some comfort to enable you to cope with this great loss.
We're comforted with the thought that "death" is God's enemy also. 1 Cor 15:26 says, "the last enemy that will be destroyed is death." Revelation 21 reminds us that God will make all things new and will wipe away all of our tears. There will be no more death, or crying. We will have no more pain or sorrow.
Hope for the resurrection and the soon-coming new world that God offers sustains us in the face of death - which is so powerful. There are so many verses of comfort. We pray that they may comfort each and every one of you.
Uncle Curt and Aunt Brenda

Anonymous said...

I went through this same exact thing with my Mother 18 months ago and it seems like it was yesterday. Her wish was to not be in a hospital setting, so she stayed at my house with us. I know everything you are going through. It is such an emotional rollercoaster. People would say they wondered why she would keep hanging on and I would say, once she is gone, that is it. I did not care how hard it was to take care of her. I wanted her with me (perhaps selfishly) as long as possible. Do not feel bad for anything you are feeling, and know that others are thinking of you and supporting you on this difficult journey.

Anonymous said...

I am thinking of you all!
Janet Anne

Anonymous said...

My prayer for you and yours,
Father God we lift up this grieving and troubled family to you tonight. Comfort them as only you can. Let your light shine on them and give them your peace.
AMEN
I love you all and I am praying all the time for you.
Love,
Robin

Anonymous said...

just want to say i love you guys and will always have our memories with all of you. will get through this, Sis my prayers are with you and tom I know it is not suppose to be this way but we can not change it no matter how much we want to, take care and give my love to all. Aunt Connie

Anonymous said...

TO ALL THAT ARE READING THIS BLOG KNOW THAT MY FAMILY SINCERELY APPRECIATES YOU WORDS OF COMFORT AND PRAYERS. MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS ARE AMAZING PEOPLE AND GET THROUGH ALMOST EVERYTHING,BUT I THINKS THIS IS THE HARDEST. PLEASE KEEP THEM IN YOUR PRAYERS AND MY PARENTS ALSO.
LORD FATHER PUT THY HAND UPON SHIRLEY AND COMFORT HER HEART AS WELL AS HER CHILDREN AND HUSBAND. PUT THY HANDS ON MY FAMILY OUT THERE IN KC AND COMFORT THEM AS WELL WATCH OVER TERESA AND KATHY, TOM AND TIM HOLD THEM IN YOUR PALMS AND GIVE THEM STRENGTH TO ENDURE THIS GRIEF THEY ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW. TOUCH MY PARENTS TOM AND DEBBIE WITH THY MERCY TO STAND FOR THERIR CHILDREN AND FAMILY BUT AS PARENTS OF SHIRLEY AND PROTECT AND GIVE GRACE TO SAMI ALEX AND MIKE FOR EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER THAT THEY ARE ON.
IN JESUS NAME AMEN

Anonymous said...

I pray that you're all doing OK.

Dusty

Anonymous said...

You all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Tina