Some Days are Harder Than Others

And there is nothing different today than yesterday. I miss her and I want her back.

MISSING MY SISTER

One Morning I found you in eternal sleep.
I tried to wake you as I began to weep.
But all my please you could not hear.
Oh if I could have only kept you near.
Away from the voices of those who went before.
Who beckoned you to come to that distant shore.

I find it so very hard to believe,
That you have gone and I must grieve.
I call out your name -- you answer not,
And I look for you in every familiar spot.
Everything seems so strange and surreal.
I ask everyday is it a dream or is it real?

Where are the soft brown eyes of affection?
Where is the laughter and talk of childhood reflection?
Where is the loving care when I was sad?
Where is the generous soul for which I was glad?
Where is the forgiving and understanding heart?
Where are the bonds that were there from the start?

I miss all the little ways you showed you cared,
For there were so many good moments we shared.
Looking back on my life's assorted scenes,
I realized you taught me what love truly means.
You were my trusted confidante and best friend,
On whose loving support I could always depend.

I look at your smiling face in all my photos,
Memories flood my mind as I touch the mementos.
From the happy times you and I have had,
But now these bring tears and make me sad.
For the time together went by in a wink,
Life was not as long as we would like to think.

Sometimes memories bring comfort and make me smile
But there are times when grief takes over for a while
Friends offer gentle words and prayers to console
And tell me what has happened to your loving soul
Can it be true what they say of time healing grief
Is it enough when they say death has given you relief

Can we believe what others say of a better place
Where our beloved ones rest in God's warm embrace
I should be happy you are free of pain and sorrow
And rejoice that you will always have a tomorrow
How can I then be so heartbroken and selfishly cry..
"Return to me from that peaceful place where you lie!!!"

Now I look down at your name on a cold hard stone
That says little of the loving light you have shone
It tells nothing of the wonderful pereson you were
And only serves to remind me of the painful loss I endure
But I know your kind soul wants no tears or pain
Instead you would want warm memories and love to remain

Although I cry and stand grief stricken by your grave
I promise not to forget the loving memories you gave
But still I miss you so very much my sister dear
And your caring words I once again long to hear
My heart's only solace is one day I will see you as before
Beckoning me to come join you on that white distant shore.