Friday!!!!!

Thank the good Lord. I was just reading back on my posts from last year and the 29th of July was the one year anniversary of my Rocky dying. That really sucked. The very first animal in my entire life that I had to actually take in and have put to sleep. And watch it happen. I look back on that time and realize how much was going on around me and how badly I really did not need that to happen. He was an awesome dog. Funniest looking dog I have ever seen. But so sweet.

Now Sue has fit right into our family and trying to fill that void. That's the difference with animals. You can normally find another one that you can love as much and give all of your attention to. And it helps heal some of that sadness inside of you. I will always miss him but I find myself loving my Sue the same way.

That will never happen with Shirley. As long as I live, I will never find anything to help heal that pain. And it will always hurt just as bad. You just have to learn to live with it and accept the fact that this is the way you will feel as long as you live.

I watched a movie called Bride Wars last night. Really funny movie. I enjoyed it a lot. At the end of the movie they talk about how you can find that special someone to marry, but the person that is the most important to you isn't always your spouse. And you never even realize it until something happens to make you realize it. That's how I felt the day Shirley was told she had cancer. I knew that day for the very first time how much I loved her.

We are going out with Tim and Bea tonight. More Mexico trip planning. More drinking...of course. I hope everyone has an awesome weekend!!!!

I love you,

Teresa

Here are the pictures...

Sammy and Alex

Alex & Nik:)

of the fair and the hog roast. What few I have. Sammy and Alex did really well last night. Ribbons all around. Of course it was last night so I have already forgotten what they won. But trust me...they did good!!!!

Mom and Dad and Tom and Cindy were there along with Mike and Tom. They will sell the piggies on Friday and be done. I believe this is their last year. Kind of sad...but probably for the best. The living situation does not make it as easy anymore. And it's definitely not the same without Shirley here.

Enjoy and have a wonderful day!!!!

Love,

Teresa

P.S. At first last night, I really felt sorry for the piggies. Their lives are so short and that in a couple of days it will all come to an end. And then all of a sudden...I was a little jealous of them. I told them to tell Shirley hi for me. I am sure Shirley will be there to greet all of the piggies into heaven. Maybe not...Maybe piggies don't go to heaven. I hope they do.

It's that time again...

the fair. Not the same old fair that we have had in the past. No rides or fun stuff. And not even in Wyandotte County. Weird. Oh well. Sammy makes it sound like it will be their last year doing the fair anyway. And Shirley's not here...so it's kind of appropriate that it's not the same as every other year.

We will go out and watch Sam and Alex show their piggies. Sam has already won some ribbons this week. I hope they do well.

I was so worried last year on how Shirley would do with the heat and all of the work and being sick. But she was so strong and did just fine.

Just got a call from Miss Kathy...she's taking me to lunch. Woo Hoo!!!!! Made my whole day!

Today is a good day!!!! I don't know why, but it is. Thinking good thoughts and loving my family.

I hope the same for everyone I love.

Love,

Teresa

I Had Lunch With...

Mom and Grandma!!! Yea!!! We had mexican food and it was such a nice lunch. I do love both of them! It was nice of them to take me away from work for awhile. It started pouring down rain at the end and now I am sitting in air conditioning wet and cold. :( grrrrr.

Poor Grandma is due to have another shoulder surgery at the end of August. She is aging right before our eyes. And on the way back from lunch we started talking about missing our girl Shirley and how fast time just passes us by....and there is nothing you can do. I'm not sure that's as bad for me as it used to be. I told mom that I can remember grandma being such a big, strong woman. She was a hard worker and just took care of herself. And now, she is so dependent on everyone else. Shirley always helped mom take care of grandma. She was good at that.

Tracy, thank you for talking to me through the blog. I really appreciate it. You are such a sweet girl and I love you and I am glad we are related. Aunt Carolyn and Uncle Dan are blessed to have you. Dusty and Tina...you guys are so nice. I told the girls from high school how you guys comment and keep my spirits up through the blog. You have no idea how much it helps.

And Tear .... come to Mexico with us. You and Guy would have a blast. No kiddos...no grand kids...Just the adults. We love and miss you guys.

Stay Dry!!!!

Teresa

Another Successful Hog Roast

and I left my camera at Tommy and Cindy's. So you get pictures from last year. And it kind of makes me feel like Shirley was there when I look at those.

It was a great turnout and the food was awesome. I have never seen the pool as crowded before. They hired a girl to sing some country music to start the party and then ended with a jazz band.

Tim and Bea and Steve and I hung around a little later to plan our Mexico trip. Things are actually starting to come together. Hmmm...I think I really am going to have to get on a plane again. Start praying for me now.

Jake's baseball season is over as of yesterday. So should free up some of my time...probably not. July is almost over...that is just so weird. Time is flying by.

Hope to have lunch with Kathy or mom this week. We will see....:)

Love,

Teresa

So I Had to Go Visit Shirley

to make myself feel better...finally. I woke up yesterday around 5:30 and I was already crying. I tried to go into work and that lasted maybe 2 hours. So I went to the store, bought some pretty purple flowers and went to visit Shirley. It's very beautiful and peaceful there. And it did help. I love her and I miss her and I guess some days are just going to be worse than others.

Last night I went to dinner with my friends from high school again. Ironically, it was across the street from where we had Shirley's visitation. The dinner was good, the company was great and ended my day on a very good note.

So tomorrow is the hog roast at Tom and Cindy's. I am definitely looking forward to that. I think I am needing a little family time:)

I hope you all have a safe and happy weekend!!!!

Love,

Teresa:)

One of My Favorite Pictures