I don't normally watch...

House. But last night I turned it on right at the end. I heard "The person you want with you when you are living is not the person you want with you when you are dying". Think about that for awhile.

Love,

Teresa

P.S. Still working on pictures...sorry.

Whew....

One holiday down. The Thanksgiving Day was awesome. Beautiful day with beautiful family. The turkey and stuffing and pie were delicious. Bad dog was good dog. People were happy. But she was missing. She wasn't there. It didn't really affect me that day. I was busy running around...playing hostess. Enjoying everyone and everything. Friday...it hit me. I spent the next 3 days having a really hard time ....trying not to cry...trying to push bad memories out and let good ones in. Trying so hard to not remember what we were going through one year ago. Thankful Shirley had a good Thanksgiving...but knowing what was to come. Dreading it. And it was like it all came back. Nights have been bad. She's in my every thought.

We got Christmas decorations out and I remembered last year...I did get them out but never really decorated. I had to take care of Shirley...there was no time to decorate.

So...we will try to make it to the next holiday.

Teresa did get her passport...so I will be going to Mexico in January. This week we will get our tree and decorate....in purple. My husband came up with the idea to do a purple tree this year. In memory of Shirley. She would have loved it. I will definitely put up pictures when it is done.

And there should be pictures on here soon from Thanksgiving. I forgot the adaptor cord today...oops!!!

I hope your holiday was filled with love.

Love,

Teresa

Happy Thanksgiving...

to all of my friends and family. I'm definitely in a more somber and sad place today. I am excited to prepare my home for my family tomorrow...but there will be somebody missing. For the first time in my entire life...I will not be sharing Thanksgiving with Shirley. You prepare yourself for a lot of things that will happen in your life. But never that.

She will definitely be there with us tomorrow. I made sure we are surrounded by pictures of her and we will feel her love. I am going to pray tonight that we all will just make it through the day.

If you are not somebody I will see or talk to tomorrow...Have a wonderful Thanksgiving. Please be safe and happy:)

Love,

Teresa

Here is the Stinker...

look how handsome he is. It was not easy to get this guy to pose and eventually he just gave up and started chewing on his bone. He's almost like a celebrity...he gets tired of the papparazzi always in his face and taking his picture.

I tried to have a talk with him last night on how bad dogs are supposed to behave when we have holiday dinners. I do not think he was listening at all. At one point, I am sure I heard snoring. Grrrrr...

The grocery shopping was done last night. All that is left to get is the giant turkey tomorrow night.

My stress was relieved a little this morning when I got an early morning phone call from Kathy. She has offered to bring over to me the green bean casserole and sweet potatoes. And she is not even eating dinner at our house. Thank you Kathy!!!!!

Love,

Teresa

I have a mixture

of emotions today. I knew all weekend that I would be sad today. But I worked so much that I didn't have a lot of time to think about it. But sure enough...I woke up crying this morning:( It doesn't matter whether I am thinking about it or not...just weird how the body and soul knows ...

So Teresa worked all freaking weekend and not preparing for Thanksgiving. Nothing was really accomplished toward putting Thanksgiving together. So the panic is starting to set in. We did get carpets cleaned and bad dog groomed. Oh my he is handsome. I didn't even think it was my dog when I picked him up. And he smelled soooo good. He is now ready to smell everyone's bottom and french kiss them when they show up on Thursday. Good luck!!!

I think you all should be thankful that you do not live with Teresa and have to deal with the stress in my house that they are all about to deal with. It's their own fault....they mess my house up. And do not do what I tell them to do. And if they knew me at all...they would just give me alcohol and it would all be better.

The kiddos did get to spend the weekend with grandma and grandpa. The helped my mom get her Christmas stuff in so that she can put her stuff up the day after Thanksgiving. And they played a lot of games. It sounds like they had a really good time.

O.K. so I guess that means I should get to work here so that I can eventually go home and do what needs to be done.

Have a beautiful day :P

Teresa

P.S. Lunch with Miss Kathy today...

New Moon...

the movie. It was pretty awesome. I really, really enjoyed it. Or maybe I just enjoyed the company. No, it was good and I had a blast with my mother. We went out to eat Chinese food first and then headed over to the theaters. We didn't have to wait in any lines outside...they put us in a nice theater with about 30 people. We didn't sit through previews or anything. Pretty cool.

It was a late night but well worth it. It's been a long time since I have spent time with just me and mom. And we are always very comfortable talking about our Shirley. There are not a lot of people I can do that with, but she is one of them. Very comforting.

And now the stress of my weekend!!!!! Any volunteers want to come and clean my house???? (why do I have a feeling everyone just logged off their computers???)

My boys are going out to my parents tomorrow to help mom get her Christmas decorations into the house. Mom never gets to put her stuff up right after Thanksgiving because everyone is busy doing their own thing. But this year we have planned ahead and are sending Nik and Jake out to get it out for her. Yay!!!!

I am hoping for a wonderful weekend for everyone else. Not sure it will happen for me...

Love,

Teresa:)

Pray for poor Teresa....waaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!

I have been...

in bed for a couple of days. I definitely am not cut out to be a drug addict. The drugs my doctor gave me for pain a couple of days ago knocked me on my butt. It took me a day to recover from that. But I am back...

Yesterday was Kaitlyn Marie's first birthday. My niece who was given Shirley's middle name. That was very emotional for me last year and meant so much. We will be celebrating her birthday this weekend.

Tonight I am going to see The New Moon movie with mom. She has 2 passes and I get to go. I made sure to watch the first one the other night and I really enjoyed it. So I am definitely looking forward to a night out with mom tonight.

And of course...it is one week from today that we will be celebrating Thanksgiving. I am happy because my number for the amount of people that are coming keeps going up. I love hosting Thanksgiving...it will be nice.

Have an awesome day!!!

Teresa